looks like morning in your eyes..

dari 144 frame yang harusnya akan terlihat hebat.. yang jadi cuma 17 frame.. sisa nya over lighting, sodara sodara.. sedih.. tapi lumayan lah.. (:

taken with lomokino and lomography film color 800
menganti beach, jawa barat, indonesia.

About a human you called friend.

Gue, mendapatkan sahabat pertama gue di kelas 2 smp.
Sebelumnya, dikelas 1 smp, gue gapunya temen sama sekali.
Justru gue cenderung jadi anak aneh yg di bully.
Di kelas 1 smp gue adalah anak yg selalu disuruh-suruh beliin makanan sm temen sekelas gue sendiri, padahal kita sebaya, dan gue adalah pembantu mereka. Damn it. I'm not thinking bout that for a very long time till now, and remembering that not even makes me sad or angry.
Im already forget it and forgive them.
Well, di kelas 2 smp, kehidupan gue berubah 180 derajat.
I'm transformed to a funny girl and every body in my class likes me, a lot.
Gue jadi sering nyanyi didepan temen2 gue di tengah kelas, and they enjoy it.
Gue ketemu sahabat pertama gue, laki2 bernama vangali. I love him like my brother. We share everything's, cerita keluarga nya, masalah nya sm bokap nya, hal2 yg dia suka, dan jg tentu nya tentang perempuan yg dia suka. I enjoy this friendship, I love him so deep, I cry when he said he have to go out from Jakarta and stay living in another place, far from me, I won't lose him.
Sampe suatu hari akhirnya dia harus pergi, walau bukan ke luar kota, justru lebih parah. Dia harus pergi dr hidup gue. Karna sebuah masalah yg... sulit untuk dijelaskan.

Udah lama bgt berlalu, gue udah memilih untuk cukup menyimpan aja cerita persahabatan ini. Every single person, have their choice to choose, vangali memilih untuk pergi, gue memilih untuk gak menganggu dia.

Nyata nya gue masih punya bebapa sahabat lain.
Gloria. My best baby ever. Dede, Abeth, Ochi. I love them until now.
Mereka juga sahabat gue dr smp, sm ky vangali. Dan persahabatan kami masih terjalin baik sampai skrg.
Kalopun gue berapa kali nangis krn kangen sama mereka, itu sama sekali ga mengurangi rasa sayang gue. Masing2 dr kita bisa aja jadi sangat sibuk dan seolah ngelupain satu sm lain,
hampir setahun ga ketemu abeth, beberapa kali gagal main sm dede krn dia (buat gue krlihatannya) lebih enjoy main sm tmn sma dan kuliah nya, sering kali merasa kalo oci gapernah niat mau ketemu dan seolah2 ga butuh gue, atau sm gloria yg paling deket pun gue suka ngerasa kecewa karna banyak hal, I tell you again, it isn't makes even a little bad impact to my feelings bout you girls. I love you, I say you're all name in my pray. May god always beside you and hold your hands tight, that's the only one I wish,

Kenyataannya, gue sangat amat suka, senang, apalah itu namanya, dengan sesuatu, yg orang sebut dengan persahabatan.
Toa, tiur, almas, debo, ade, vivi, refdy, cika, vito, destian, david, bang balgo, bang bram, ledy, Anton, tian, beatrice, om anis, ka sat, om boris, dian, loni, wika, qisthi, Shasa, gendis, stefy, om ari, om bonay, dll

Kalo mau ditulis semua sih banyak banget ya sahabat gue, intinya ya, gue sayang lah sm kalian. Segala yg baik dan buruk dr kalian, yg bikin gue ketawa jungkir balik, atau nangis merging-raung. Thanks people's, you turn to be my life's crayon. Drawing my world with so many colors. And all of the colors are beautiful, even the darkest one.

Well, this posting are I'm dedicated to my new and best friends, family in lomography embassy store, place where I spend most of my day since this last 6 months.
Angga, Risma, Alfi, Cici.
We just got some trouble so one of us must go for a while.
I'm not a perfect person. Sometimes I do stupid things and makes you guys mad at me. I'm sorry ya. Gue tau dalam bekerja gue banyak kekurangan, banyak nakal nya, kalian banyak gak suka nya sm gue, but one thing I really would you guys to know, as a friend, my heart are pure.

Tetutama Risma, makasih ya buat semuanya, you are the best life's teacher for me :)
And specially for Angga, maafin iyud ya. Iyud gonna miss you really.

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Cc1: my best friend and lover ever: Syamsaris Ryadio
Cc2: my soulmate: Hana Tri Eka Natalia
Cc3: the great creator who made a feelings named love and fill it to a heart of person called friend: Jesus God.

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conference

workshops

26 . 06 . 11

last month is my sister's boy friend, Mas Daniel, birthday. she got a plan to make a little surprise party. i help her to make it happend. these are the photos bout how the party's going so fun, warm, and SURPRISE!

well, i'm so sorry for the late upload. just got a bad trouble with internet connection.

the cake

the birthday man and the surprise creator

I WANT ONE! oh no, MORE!

the family

i make it happened :D

walk on it that nite

new buddy. just hold it for a week.

TRIBUTE TO PONI ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

AN APOLOGIE TO S.

SAD GIRL (A TESTIMONY SLIDE)

 

to my S, once again, i'm sorry :')

the power of SAAT TEDUH

ruthkartikams: ih kamu mah
ruthkartikams: stress karena gak ada kerjaan sih bagus
ruthkartikams: memacu kita untuk usaha lagi dan lagi
ruthkartikams: tapi kalo stress gara2 duit mah.. hadeh.. kasian W sama U
ruthkartikams: duit ngapain di stress-in sih
ruthkartikams: eh ti gue mau kesaksian nih
ruthkartikams: jadi ya 2 hari lalu tuh gue GALAU se GALAU-GALAU nya
ruthkartikams: sampe nangis
ruthkartikams: sampe banting botol parfum tau gax lo
ruthkartikams: trus besoknya entah kenapa kaki gue tergerak ke toko buku kalam hidup
ruthkartikams: entah gimana pokoknya hari itu pulang kuliah tiba2 gue ngelewatin kp.melayu
ruthkartikams: padahal biasanya gue lewat cawang
ruthkartikams: itu ya udah jam 7:58
ruthkartikams: dan tulisan di depan toko buku, TUTUP jam 8:00
ruthkartikams: yang adalah..... 2menit lagi
ruthkartikams: gila, kalo bukan tuhan yg ngerencanain gax akan se kebetulan ini
ruthkartikams: dan lo tau apa yg gue lakukan di sana?
ruthkartikams: beli buku saat teduh
ruthkartikams: fvck
ruthkartikams: ada apa dengan gue?
ruthkartikams: harga nya 4000
ruthkartikams: dan duit gue pas2an buat ongkos
ruthkartikams: ada dih 50rb an
ruthkartikams: tapi kan biasanya gue males mecahin duit
ruthkartikams: dan sebenernya emang duit tadi udah due sediain buat ongkos
ruthkartikams: tp gue tetep beli
ruthkartikams: karna apa?
ruthkartikams: KARNA GUE UDAH NIAT SAAT TEDUH DARI AWAL 2011 TAPI GAK KESAMPE-SAMPEAN SAMPE BULAN MARET
ruthkartikams: tapi di saat gue sedang galau
ruthkartikams: tuhan membiming gue dan gue tau ini waktu nya gue saat teduh
ruthkartikams: besoknya (tadi pagi)
ruthkartikams: gue harus kuliah jam 8
ruthkartikams: harus berangkat jam 6
ruthkartikams: dan gue bangun setengah 6
ruthkartikams: harusnya dalam perhitungan logika, gue gak ada waktu dong buat leha2
ruthkartikams: 30 menit cuma cukup buat mandi, pake baju, dan jalan
ruthkartikams: tapi engga
ruthkartikams: gue saat teduh
ruthkartikams: yg hebat,
ruthkartikams: entah gue emang lupa atau gimana,
ruthkartikams: tiba2 pas banget disamping tmpt tidur gue ada alkitab
ruthkartikams: WHAT THE HELL?
ruthkartikams: sejak kapan ruth tidur bawa2 alkitab?
ruthkartikams: ha ha ha MAGC
ruthkartikams: *MAGIC
ruthkartikams: gue baca alkitab, baca tulisan di buku sate, dan gue berdoa
ruthkartikams: untuk semua orang.
ruthkartikams: and with a full of happines i would say,
ruthkartikams: im pray for you too darling
ruthkartikams: dan lo tau setelah gue saat teduh
ruthkartikams: udah jam 6 dan akhirnya gue berangkat jam stgh7
ruthkartikams: biasanya gue udah heboh banget tuh kl berangkat telat gitu
ruthkartikams: tp kali ini nggak
ruthkartikams: gue santai banget
ruthkartikams: sampe2 sempet minum susu segala
ruthkartikams: dan gue nggak telat
ruthkartikams: dan selesai kuliah gue pulang dengaan suka cita
ruthkartikams: padahal sam ijin gak pulang hari ini
ruthkartikams: biasanya gue akan marah sampe gila
ruthkartikams: tp kali ini nggak
ruthkartikams: GUE SANGAT BERSUKA CITA
ruthkartikams: padahal gue gak punya uang SEPESERPUN
ruthkartikams: dan lo tau best part nya hari ini apa?
ruthkartikams: TADI SORE GUE ABIS INTERVIEW DI THE GOODS DEPT nya P.I
ruthkartikams: ha ha ha udah lama banget ngirim cv kesono dan baru dipanggil hari ini
ruthkartikams: gue di telpon jam 2 dan jam 4 nya gue lgsg interview
ruthkartikams: ahhh~ hari ini indah karena saat teduh
ruthkartikams: besok saat teduh lagi ahhhh~ haha
ruthkartikams: lesson i learned are,
ruthkartikams: tuhan bisa kok ngasih LEBIH dari yg lo minta.
ruthkartikams: cuma masalahnya, lo udah minta belom?

#soQuote

" ada yang salah dalam penyusunan kalimat yg diucapkan pastor saat melayani pemberkatan pernikahan,
'mereka yang dahulu dua, kini telah menjadi satu'

dua tidak akan menjadi satu.
karna satu ditambah satu adalah dua,
bukan satu.

untuk menjadi satu,
kita harus menjadi 'setengah' terlebih dahulu.
maka setengah ditambah setengah barulah sama dengan satu.

pangkas setengah dari egois mu,
maka kamu akan menjadi satu dengan pasanganmu.

"Bazoka Marpaung - Jakarta, 2008

deep sorrow my darling,

deep sorrow, my darling.

they come,
one, two, three, and more
and more

they wear black,
all of them wear black
na.
some people wear grey, and brown, and blue
a darkest one of blue

they look at me,
they smile,
shake my hand hardly
and look at me again
and look at me again
and it was a bad eyes
worst eyes i ever see
and all of them had a same bad eyes.

they made a very slow talking
i can't hear them clearly,
i won't my darling
no need for me

i already know what they talking bout
they talking about us
about how you look so pretty tonight

i keep on silent
i don't like this situation
so much people in our home

i remember,
on a afternoon like this,
here would be just you and i in the home
talk about everything

now we not
not just you and i,
but peoples
that shake my hands hardly
i don't know them
yes i know some, but not at all
i don't exactly know their name

but it's okay
i need them
to stay here in the home with me,
and a sleeper you.
yes you are a sleeper my darling.
you sleeper.

i miss you my darling.
don't mind it

just sleep,
deeper,
and deeper my darling.

i'll miss you my darling,

happy sleep.
but please don't ask me for goodnight kiss.
it's not night already.

but it's okay
i can give you a goodnight kiss now,
might be the last from me.

happy sleep my darling.
get deeper.

My Ideal

A Motion Writer

It might sound weird, but that's my ideal. I have always been gifted with a natural appeal for words and literature, whereas I found that there is a form of art that interests me the most; paintings, or motion graphic. Combining the two point of interests are the bottom lines of my desire, thus, I want to be a motion writer, or in a more common term; I want to be a scriptwriter.

I realize that becoming a scriptwriter might not as easy as it looks like. Unlike writing poems or proses, where the writer would have the most liberated exploration to express their visions in words, scriptwriting takes that thrill and elevates it in a different level of challenge. In scriptwriting, tthe writer's vision in words then needs to be conveyed in a stream of motion and pictures which, in the end, would form a unity called film, or motion graphic. Hence the name 'motion writer' I gave it upon.

In my humble opinion, in writing scripts or scenarios, one needs to have a considerably high level of awareness. Not every visual image is able to be transformed well into words, vice versa. However, a scriptwriter should have the ability to manage both challenges adeptly.

Furthermore, in film-making, it always intrigues me to playfully use the analogy of God and his prophet when it comes to describe the task of the scriptwriter and the director. I see the scriptwriter as the God of the film, while director is its prophet. It is true that the director holds full control in the direction of the visual concept of the film, but he or she also needs to ascertain the whole flow from the guideline, in this case is the script or scenario, made by the scriptwriter. You can be aware of this fact when you hear the director tells his or her crews and actors “Please make sure it sticks to the script.” or “Have you read the script, really?” and so forth. This is where we can see that scriptwriting holds the main guideline in film-making.

All those things above sound like a challenge and thrill for me. Of course, I know that it might not as easy as it really sounds, and I am fully aware that even the most simple dream needs the most sincere effort. Being a scriptwriter is not merely a simple dream for me, it has became my biggest passion and it is exactly why I am focusing my most sincere efforts in achieving my dream now.